June

hey Time...please pass by slowly when i'm having my holidays. I seriously can't cope with your speed. and once again, i have planned to fail...as i didn't plan my holiday properly, not mentioning executing them. i'm just going with the flow for now...trying to relax...try to allow things to happen naturally...but whenever i look back, as much as i have feel/know that i have gain something valuable along this journey...i would still think that i have not make good use of my time.

hmm, maybe i really need to learn how to (truly) relax, haha.

anyway, it's not a big deal. The big deal for this holiday is that i'm going to Singapore on 24th June! YAYYYYY!!! and my wish for this trip is..........................for Time to pass away slowly. Let me enjoy my time to the fullest. every second should feel like an eternity. ok, that's scary.lol!


oh btw, here's a video that i've watched today. super touching. this video has once again proved that we have great command over the life that we want to lead. in this case, a (hopeless) gangster can turn over a new leaf and become such a hopeful and respectable person...living a life filled with true love, joy and peace. and this video has also proved that mother's love for his child is boundless. and in this vid, the kid's mother not only has unconditional love and faith in his child, she is very wise too. I'm so happy for her that she can pull his son back on track again. (and even better, reestablished the broken family.)
well, some people..(like his other gangster friends)...might not have the luck to come into contact with such great people like the kid's mother or some great teachers. but the knowledge/wisdom that will lead to the right path is forever there. And that is to genuinely love, care and respect other people. (and of course there are other important details to know if one wants to walk on the right path of life.) Well, the book （弟子规） is an old teaching material for the children back in the past...This is one of the book that can guide people onto the right path. i have briefly gone through it before...and have yet to discover the gem in it. but i will. (i guess the internet have access to the writings).
NOTE! get your tissue ready before watching this vid.


i still have so much to learn. there are so many invisble great things are out there. waiting for me to discover them :)

and i've finally read "Little Prince"! downloaded an pdf version of it online...(for free, lol)...and yeap, it's an interesting read!

well, i'm heading to Macau tmr...for two days plus. my instinct tells me that i should pay a visit to that place. I'm not going there to just...play play play....have fun, have fun, have fun. I'm just trying to understand myself better.

okay, i need to relax.

hahaahah. shall stop typing already. i should be sleeping now, but my heart tells me to blog...NOW. and i did. okay...my brain is telling me to sleep....NOW. and i'm going to :)

i need to relax.

:O

Happy Birthday Ray Ray!

Fantastic! Ray Ray has been around me for 2 years already!

yeap, 21st May is Ray Ray's birthday. It's an extra pleasure for me to know that 21st May 2011 was rumoured as the end of day or Judgement Day or Doomsday...

as we know by now....(22nd May 2011 already)....yesterday was not the end of the world.

Well...i have this little observation. It is highly possible that our almighty Ray Ray has decided to let mankind live for a while longer. He is giving us one more chance to prove our worth....

LOL. okay. what a story huh.

anyway, i've finished all my assignments already! and my first free time drawing shall be dedicated to Ray Ray of cos. unfortunately, i can only finish it now..which is a few hours after 21st May 2011. hope he doesn't mind me sending this belated birthday card. (of cos, he won't :P )


alright, good day!

thin air

Alright, April is going to be over soon...and today is the day which i have both some energy and time to blog something here :)

well, i have too many things going on in my head recently. It's pretty crazy. indeed. ...anyway, i am going to finish my second semester pretty soon...with just a one more assignments and a test to do. no more schooling already...so i'm pretty much in holiday or happy mood now, haha

let's see what else i can talk about.

okay, I wish to informally announce that I will probably be coming back to Singapore somewhere near the end of June period! (preferably from 24th June to 3rd July) I have not book the air ticket yet, will do so asap! The trip will be 10 days long, and I will most likely be staying at my cousin's place. I believe during the 10 days, if i can plan it nicely, i would be able to meet most of the people whom i wish to meet. but to think again, things may not go so smoothly...and i may miss meeting several of you guys! that would be so shitty!! D:

basically, I would like to meet these 4 major group of people
1) primary sch frens
2) secondary sch frens
3) polytechnic frens
4) army frens
oh wait, these are all the people i know in Singapore :/
hahaaha! and there are some smaller group of people whom i'll probably meet separately...

...and after calculations, there are practically 7 different meet ups in 10 days for me and if you take away the arrival day and the departure day, i will only have 8 days to do all this. Not impossible, but not too easy either...as everybody's time table are different...so let's just hope for the best :)
(also note that i should be back at my cousin's place b4 midnight...so there goes my night time.)

hmm...if i have still have 'my' beloved Pearl Bank Apartment in Singapore...i will DEFINITELY stay in SG for about a month or so. oh well, nobody likes to hear about the 'what if'. but yea, you've heard me. haha~

what else? hmm oh ya, i've heard about the General Election event in Singapore. Very ashamed to say that i have very little idea what is really going on there. never had a clear understanding about political and economic issues. needa wake up my ideas. all i can do now is to wish the event will go on as peacefully and ideally as possible..with everyone coming to a common understanding in the end...and move on together!

haizz, i actually tried to give some "valuable" personal opinions on this issue...but i only ended up typing quite a lot of unconstructive comment and ideas. shall delete them...keep quiet...read more and understand more.

still, my itchy mouth makes me want to say this...that a lot of great things were done through the 'trial and error' method. I don't mind people going for THE change...no matter it is a good change or a bad change at the end of the day, because the people of Singapore will gain invaluable experience from it. Of course, this is a HUGE decision to make, as it involves the entire nation. i see this 'competition' a good event for Singapore in a long run. Even if PAP won again this time, i feel that it will do quite some (positive) adjustments for the nation soon after.

that's how i see it. or guess it. haha.

kk, shall cut the talking here.

all the best everyone :)

What do you want?

The Earth is "sick" because we are "sick".

Not many people, including me of cos, have a complete and accurate understanding about the relationship between us (human beings) and our environment (Earth). but i wish to contribute some of my understanding and opinions about this relationship. Do inform me if any of the information provided here is wrong or questionable.

so here we go....

-We should live with Nature and not against it-

(this statement is derived from 天人合一, which has similar meanings and agendas.)

this way of living life has been introduced to us a long long time ago. It's time to really proceed with this "system" of living. not really to save earth... it is to save ourselves.

We are so fortunate to be capable of learning, sharing and creating…we can use these powerful brains that we have to get what we desire to get…through manipulating the environment etc. We are the only specie on earth today that enjoys this kind of “privilege” or "power".

It is Nature that has imparted us with this unique power in one way or another. (maybe by some "accidents" or the evolution theory.)

No other living thing has done as much (negative) physical impact to earth than us. Look at what we have done to Earth within the past few centuries…all these drastic (negative) changes had happened in a very short period of time if compared to Earth’s “age”. We can “achieve” this because of the gift that Nature has given to us, only that we have been using this gift IN A COMPLETELY WRONG WAY.

We created the modern Monetary/Financial system to help us run our human world. And while trying to maintain this system, we are enslaved to it and are seriously “hurt” by it. This system is about profit vs loss…it’s all about money... winning and losing. Money has no value to Earth. And we are fighting against each other, do harm to Earth and other living organisms because we want more power and more money….(what else should we be concern about ?)

Maybe we can’t be blamed? because we human beings are flawed creation...and so, how can we come up with a perfect system to guide all of us to a perfect world where everyone is happy, while we know that nothing is perfect or can be perfect? So should we continue to stick with this (monetary) system as we know that any other alternate system that we would create to replace this one will have similar or other equally troublesome problems as well?

I ask myself this question:

How “Natural” or how “Human” is this (monetary) system?

To me, it is against Nature’s well-being. It is against human’s well being.

The stronger the system, the less human we are. (should elaborate on this point)

But we are still supporting this system.

Can I say that we are victims of this system (to be stuck in it). we would all vote for a change (for the better) if we were asked right?

...hmm...maybe we should have a change. maybe we should stick with this system....(when can we come to a conclusion to this issue?)

We have been “programmed” by our fellow governors, teachers, society, entertainment industry etc to understand and serve this system. We are now “so aware” that we must "understand" and serve this system as efficiently as possible, if not we will not be able to prosper or SURVIVE? Just how “strong” we can be if we abandon this system?

We might have considered about all these issues before, but most of our efforts are gone to waste if our eventual reaction/decision is something like this…

"…Let's go with the FLOW (as everyone else seems to be dealing with it fairly well). Just ignore this BIG picture (it is too big a picture for a person, especially the commoner, to think and act differently and change anything of such a scale). Just mind what you’re doing, what you’re supposed to do and what you want to do. We are just a tiny speck of dust in the universe, what truly matters anyway? (this is our wise take on life)"

…and then we’ll fit right back into system. Never wanting this system to become "weak" again as it will further make our life less meaningful or worthy to live on.

To me, this decision is equivalent to selling your soul and humanity for the well-being of the system. And the most ironic thing about this is that we are selling our souls and humanity to something that we have created out of our mind, and not because of external threats such as the natural disasters or alien invasions.

In the process of maintaining this system, we have done a lot of inhuman acts. most of which we are not aware of...(i hope so)....and some which we are aware of! this is sick. very sick.

(i have tried to avoid "messing around with the system" and try to improve the quality of everyone's (problematic) life on other levels through other platforms. but now, i am pretty sure that what i truly wish for all mankind to have (peace, health and happiness) can never be attained if we continue to entertain this ridiculous world system about gaining personal profits.)

i don't think the rich and the famous are truly happy. so what's the point of the system if the people at the top are not truly happy, and the people at the bottom are not truly happy? and moreover, we are causing a hell lot of troubles to our "creators", Earth.

Nature has never attempt to make profit out of something. It has not demonstrates to us anything about gaining extra profit or winning, but about sharing and balancing. We are Earth’s product. We live on Earth. Just how dangerous it is if we are living our lives against Nature’s way of life? We may be able to find out soon. Till then, everything is too late.

We are really sick nowadays, far worse than people of the past. This system makes us sick and inhuman. The amount of "harms" that we have inflicted upon ourselves or have allowed to be inflicted on us will soon exceed our very own limit...we are breaking down.

and Earth will balance out our negative thoughts and behaviours by unleashing series of natural disasters upon mankind. I believe this is at least 80% true. Nature is not revenging, it does not harbour any personal intention or interest in anything. Nature is just reflecting our deeds and counter-balancing everything that comes and goes along. And when we are putting up absolute outrageous behaviours? The Nature will answer us with outrageous behaviours. Take that. and hey...can we afford to take it? Human is nothing compared to the "power" that Nature possesses.

Then why still do the (inhuman) things that we are doing now? I beg for an answer. I don't think that those "governors/controllers" way up there do not understand the weigh of this matter...but why are we still doing it?

are we really all brain-washed? is it too late to change for the better?

In fact, we are at the best position to change for the better now because of the technology that we possess now. .. we just have to use them for the right purpose.

By the way, here are some videos that we should share with everyone we know:

Please also read through the information/description about the above video.

do you still want to be angry with yourself and the world now? haha, i'm still quite angry with myself and the world now. will control...will control....

Unfortunately, there is no english subtitles for this video. I'll briefly explain here...this part of the film used a few of China's historical events to explain that there is a close connection between Mankind and Nature, and a peaceful relationship should be maintained at all time so as to live a peaceful life on Earth. Those people during ancient times would carry out "worshiping" events annually to show their recognition of Nature's important role in their lives and commitment towards maintaining a peaceful relationship with Nature. and Nature does react and answer to human's calling when a healthy bond is established or reestablished.

have we lost this (vital) connection already?

(btw, I recommend everyone (who understands chinese) to watch this documentary/interview starting from episode 1, part 1. it may take quite a long time to finish them all, but it's definitely worth your time. Master JingKong is a great great great teacher!)

...Okay, i shall sum things up.

Our every movements affect our surroundings. Nature's every movements affect us. not just our (physical) actions can affect the things around us, our thoughts and feelings can physically affect them as well ...even if we did not act them out.

Hence, we should maintain a positive attitude towards life, others and everything else. (this could reduce the possibility of any further "natural" disaster perhaps?) So, we should be responsible for how we feel, think and act. on a more precise matter, in response to the video about Water can react to our writings and speech, we should be responsible for the words that we speak, the words that we type and write. try to GENERATE LOVE AND HOPE. yes, we can.

this is the simplest and the most effective solution. we'll feel better...we'll become better...and Earth may become more stable too.

All the little things that we do will have a GLOBAL EFFECT. (it is only too little to be noticed.)

When all mankind is feeling "sick" and behaving abnormally...(against human nature)...then Earth will be affected too. more so when i think that we are Earth's special children. our well being will have a great impact on Earth.

There are so much for us to do in order to steer back to the right direction.

What we need to do now is to reestablish the link between us and Nature. We should live our lives according to how the Nature lives or operates, that is to share (care) and maintain balance (sustainability). And i think within a short period of time, we will "regain our humanity back" and then we can truly enjoy the wonders that Nature has provide us with.

Strangely and sadly, such simple act seems to be the hardest thing to do too.

Follow your empathetic heart. Think like a normal human being who regards Earth as home and the Nature as the source of life and happiness. And most importantly, act like one.

After all, this global issue/tragedy will not be stopped simply by our emotional thoughts and feelings. Appropriate actions have to be taken, if not the (monetary) system or "The Invisible Pet Monster" that we have created, raised and supported till now to "take care" of us will only serve to devour us all in the end.

We should support a system that supports the well being of mankind and Nature (and this will be discussed next time.)

but before this can happen, please stay strong and positive. keep generating love and hope. and act decisively when needed.

I appologize if you feel that this post is a mess, i'll elaborate my points when i have time. for now, just try to grasp the few main ideas that i'm trying to get across. thanks!

februauruuray~

ok, i'm blogging for the sake of blogging today.
it's a little bit about blogging consistently...at least once a month. then i will feel better when i look at my Grand History section. dunno why. hahaa

school work is piling up lately. lots of group works. lots to learn and do. i'm cool with that :)

Hong Kong is finally getting warmer...i do enjoy the cold weather here...but i will not be able to stand it if such weather goes on for too long....cos it makes me feel lazy...or inactive...which means that i am more reluctant to exercise during this days. yeah....blame it on the (nice) weather. lol.
the basketball in my house is for decoration purpose nowadays.

but i am still faithfully following the NBA :P
just recently, Boston Celtics has traded Kendrick Perkins and Nate Robinson away for two quicker players. The management side of the team believes that these two new players can help them to compete better when playing against Orlando Magic and Miami Heat (strong and quick teams). I really not sure if this move is smart one or not. but i very sure that i will miss Kendrick and Nate alot...i want Boston Celtics to win the title this year....with Kendrick & Nate in it :(
and yea, congratulations to Ray Allen for becoming the player who makes the most 3 pointers in NBA history. go Ray! and i enjoy seeing your mum cheering for you at the courtside all the time!

hmm wat else? I guess i'll finish my 2nd semester somewhere around early May. I hope i can visit Singapore for around 5-7 days after that?! the mini problem now is that i don't really have a place to stay. see if i can stay at my cousin's house (he settled down in Singapore after i left, haha, never got a chance to see him for such a long time! and his wife! and their daughter!) ok. i'll try to find out. if there's no room for me to stay...i'll shall reach out to my friends in singapore! hee hee~

have to say this...I miss all my friends in singapore! my life in singapore is FANTASTIC because of you guys. i'm really blessed to be able to say that i had an amazing 15 plus years in singapore. now, i have to look forward of cos...but i will always look back to life in the past and smile...and to remember that i was once a happy kid! the growing up part...which is now...(yes, i'm still at the growing up part)...is pretty damn hard. and it's kinda more difficult when i'm sort of restarting my life here in HK. ...it's always hard during the beginning....and when you get to be more familiar with what's going on around you, you'll start to enjoy everything about it. hope this understanding can help me go through the time when i feel (kinda) lost here. i'll take it slow and easy :)

i won't be typing the above paragraph if singapore is just 3km away from hong kong. LOL.

something's gotta give. always the case.

but i'll balance it out! >_<

wow, before i enter to my zone...which nobody will understand what i'm saying...i shall stop here.

and before i go, i shall share with you guys this wonderful piece of animation made in 1968.
awesooooommmee!!! 500stars. respect. worship. love it.

2011!!

OH YES.

2011 it is!

and the month of January is going to be the past soon! I know it's a mindset thingy...cos when i'm so looking forward to this year and have this hunch that it will be pretty good (not sure for wat reason)...and this year really seems to be much better than 2010. yeah, it's only one month for 2011…at least it’s a good start haha

(it's all in the mind. it's all in the mind. it's all in the mind)

well, first of all...i'm very happy with timetable for Sem B, and i'm even more happy to know that the elective courses i've picked are great courses with great lecturers...shall brief through all of the courses when i'm done with Sem B! I shall enjoy this wonderful ride first, yea!

hmm anyway, i've been visiting shenzhen for several weekends already as I'm seeing this Chinese doctor, who will now take care of my health problems from now on, lol. yea, he is now prescribing me with chinese medicine...that will help to RE-BALANCE THE CORRUPTED FLOW OF 'YING AND YANG' IN MY FREAKING BODY. yes, my body has 'crashed' several times upon my return to HK, and i'm really in bad shape those days. Feeling restless, can't concentrate well, no appetite, slow in movement, lousy mood etc. Having enough rest, drinking enough water, eating enough food is not helping my case i realised. So during the holiday after Sem A, i've decided to go to ShenZhen and seek help from the doctors there (for I believe they are more ‘pro’ than the chinese doctors in HK)…and i'm extremely fortunate to be able to meet Doctor Gu, who has already helped me to gain much of my health back during the process! but there still a lot of 'recovery' to be done lahhhhhhh.... :P

HEALTH is so important (we all know that). but i've neglected it for such a long time...

I've been thinking whether I should head back to specialise in Animation (again) or should I follow my actual plan to specialise in Cinematic Arts (related to filming)... BUT after weighing all the pros and cons, with relation to my Degree study, school, lecturers, interest…etc…. I've decided to stick to my initial plan! For i still believe that it's essential for me to experience filming (for I love this medium too!) even if I can pretty much see myself not going to work in this field in the future. (but who knows!)

for now, I have more interest to work in an animation or a comic industry..hopefully I can land a proper job at these areas…and have a good start for my freaking career, lol! YES, I’m freaking worried about my freaking future.

I guess that why my health is getting poorer recently…I worried too much. (but who doesn’t!)

ok! time's up. gotta head to school soon!

btw, sometime i really want to quit sch and just stay in my hse to paint and draw all day long, for the next five years....

just saying...hahaha!

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wow. 2010.

the big transitional year for me.

overall, it's quite a weird ride for me. i can't say this year is normal, hell or heaven. it's a very weird mix of everything.

haha, mus be too much ups and downs and spin around this year. still having motion sickness i guess. so i can't decide if this is a good or bad year for me. maybe more of a negative thing bah...cos i dun feel very positive while trying to feel 2010 as a whole. but then......er....still...then...so....erm...

my health is really bad this year. got skinnier/lighter/more invisible after a stomach flu!

yea. 2010 is pretty much done. I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO A NEW YEAR RIGHT NOW! perhaps I just want some new energy to flow into me, to feel fresh again :)

dun know why...I have this feeling that 2011 is going to be great! hope that i'm right!

oh ya, i've finally bought a new bag to replaced the really old one, lol! yay, so happy!

anyway, 2010 has provided me with several important (personal) lessons...will keep them in mind.

okay, i'll be heading to ShenZhen and stay for a few days...will do my countdown to the new year there with my parents, haha!

so i shall wish everyone a great year ahead here!! :D