Saturday, October 29, 2011

Gastric Pain

it's back.

there was a period of time where i had experience CONSTANT gastric pain for a few days. it's fucking bad. i totally couldn't concentrate on anything, but to roll on the bed, to get myself to sleep, only then the pain can go away. Eventually, i went to see the chinese doctor and had two servings of medicine before things got better. The doctor said that everyone would experience bad gastric pain at least once in their life, and once they overcome it, they may not be having it ever again.

well, it's back. for me. it's not as bad as the previous time. i can still blog about it now, lol. but yea, gastric pain is "brain-stopper" in my point of view. as in, my brain stops working when gastric pain "takes over". This may increase my stress level when there are work waiting to be done, and that means more gastric pain. sibei sian. this feeling sucks. for i am neither sick nor healthy, i can still work...but not efficiently. guess i need to see the doctor again.

haha, reminds me about Daryl and his gastric pain moments. now i can understand how fucked up this is. and it's not helping when we are cracking lame jokes to make everyone laugh...cos laughing does not go with gastric pain well. lol!

for now, more warm water and more rest bah.

Anyday without gastric pain is a happy day. Hahhaa!

One more month and I’m somewhat done with my year 2 semester A. lol.

I know I’m doing things and learning things. But it’s like a dream. It feels like an illusion sometimes. this is probably because I feel that I have not work hard enough and have not really absorb all the new information. I still suck at learning new software, can never catch up with the lecturer’s lightning speed demonstration. Even when I can follow her pace, I would still forget what I’ve learn when I don’t touch the software for around 5 days. So every week’s new lesson is something new, and yea, i’ve forgot about what’s been taught…and I’ll forget about what will be taught soon. All is left, are the visual memories of me clicking the mouse, staring at the computer (wondering how to do it or what went wrong). It is just an experience with a new software…and that’s about it. No more information about the software. When I operate software or a machine, I don’t really use real memories, cos I didn’t retain them somehow, I use my muscle memories instead. How pathetic.

The most interesting thing for this semester is the (Chinese) scriptwriting class. It’s really fun to write your own story. To construct everything from scratch, and then see your characters coming to life…being able to follow them…and let the story unfold or retold in it’s own way. But the process for this to happen requires a lot of thinking, research and soul searching. The story I’m working on is far from done. The submitted version will not be the final version. Note that I am only required to write a 30 page script for the submission, which is not the full script. I wish I can finish the full script with the final story asap, if not it’ll be another ‘illusion’, lol.

And oh, I finally watched “L’Illusionniste” by Slyvain Chomet. Fantastic work. Will watch it a few times more to admire the wonderful animation in it.

Okay, back to ‘entertaining’ my gastric pain.