plans...

okay, i hav issues....

i planned to go to Hong Kong and work after I finish my army training(2 freaking years)...

then now i heard from adrian that i still hav to stay and work in Singapore for another few years so as to clear my wad so call...Tuition Grant debt (dun know how many thousand dollars...)..which was 'given' by the Government to support my Poly study...

and wad if i'm working as a freelancer in Singapore? Drawing illustration books and pictures for others....it counts as a proper job right? i'm afraid that the Government requires me to get a full time job...

another few years? thats like...2 years of NS, plus like 3 years of working life in Singapore...total? 5 years more....i jus dun feel like dragging...i wana start from scratch in HK asap...cos i really really really dun noe..wad my future will be like over there...i need time to get things right...the earlier i go, the better. tats how i think abt my career in HK for now.

I'm at lost right now...

and CPF (Central Provident Fund)...i dun want to be bothered by it...pls leave me alone!

so wat if i seriously hav to stay in Singapore for a few years after NS?
Everything happens for a reason. I guess I'm actually alright with the idea of starting my career as an illustrator in Singapore. For i strongly believe i can do watever i like and do it well, no matter where i am. Hence, I'll say let it be/come what may. Watever i'll get, i'll accept it. But i'll still fight for watever I want. I'm so freaking proud of myself...lol!


i feel safer to plan a few years ahead of me....cos i dun really enjoy a total 'carefree' life. I need to see targets that i can hit. I need to feel stretched. however it's alright that things usually turn out different from wat's been planned...
but why mus this (hk) plan be screwed? i guess i'm a very lousy planner...hahahaha!

i gotta be much more alert and careful when comes to bills, contracts, filling forms and stuff....i'm pretty much a grown up now...and yet i still behave like a kid most of the time...frequently setting my brain to auto-pilot mode or follow-the-guy-in-front-of-you-and-you-will-be-fine mode.

I think i'm a really lucky guy. (apart from love life and basketball life) As in, I always make it through whenever the storm is coming. I always managed to pass my tests or meet the minimal requirement for certain things...i hav helpful and great friends around me. a great mum who babysits me until now....haha!

so far, nothing has went very wrong for me...but i knew that if i still hav this 'someone's gonna watch my back' attitude...i will face my doom earlier than i thought...

i wana change. change for the better. i wana be more independent. be a real man. haha!
(sometimes good things happened to you could be a bad thing...i'm feeling it right now.)

this tuition grant thingy was once a headache for me..but i guess i've found my 'solution' already.


Peace (of mind)...and Love (chaos)!!!